music gives life soul

2006-07-23T10:30:00.000-07:00

have this sudden urge to blog now.
just came out from the toilet. guess what i found? an archie comic book! that bad habit never goes away does it, folks?
im staying out reading about beethoven's crazy life. guess what i found out about him? that his 3rd teacher's name is ALBRECHTSBERGER. u can try pronouncing that but dont ask me how to say that. all i cant hink of is albdsjfhdlsofkjhdskljfhas-burger.

busy week ahead.quartet practices, individual practices, piano practice, piano practice and more piano practice. just got my exam date!!! freaking out.scary man....
oh yes! bidding's starting soon.another headache...havent planned my timetable yet. i think its gona be a 4 or 5 day week. so many things, so little time.

ok im gona sleep. throwing everything aside and entering dreamland for afew hours before its time to lift my eyelids and get back to reality!
reality kills.

title-less

2006-06-13T10:28:00.000-07:00

just when i thought i 4got how to blog...here comes another entry.

today is an emotional and eventful day.

anw guys, how have ur hols been?
there's this show on ch18, starworld, called "The Scholar". did u guys catch it? anw season 1 is over aldy. but i thought the show was great. they should have a spore version. i know of ppl who are smarter than those contestants in season 1. they deserve a full ride scholarship.

lately, its been piano, piano and more piano. i want this badly. i want to do this not for anyone but for myself. even if i dont pursue a career in music, i still want this just as badly. it means alot to me. yes i hope my teacher knows and understands that. had lesson today. still many things to improve on. i always like to improve because i know there can never be an end to practise, and that i know my playing is not the best that i can do. today's class wasnt the best, but it wasnt the worst. im scared. i know im weak in certain places and its not easy to improve on them. but i guess patience and determination are the way to go.
i always like to do a self evaluation on my classes. i take them seriously. whether i say it out or not, at least i know where im heading. keeps me focussed.

once, my teacher commented that im a very patient person. that was after she repeatedly asked me to play a bar and i did so without any unhappiness. im patient because i want this badly enough to put my all to it, whatever it takes. if i didnt really want this, i wldnt have cared less. but i guess there's a whole lot more to improve on. although she sometimes say "yeah, u're almost there" in a really encouraging manner, i know in my heart i have alot more work to do.
ok, time to increase practise hours. sorry neighbours. i know u've been listening to the same songs over and over again, like some tape recorder. i cant help it.

long lost freedom...(well, at least for 3 months or so)

2006-04-27T11:35:00.000-07:00

can u believe im here...
can u believe im typing...
can u believe im updating...
can u believe i actually remembered i had a blog...
can u remember i actually remembered this web address...
well, if ur ans is "no" to those questions, then let me say, u are not alone because i cant believe it myself!

alrite guys, exams has just ended for me...i dont noe if its a blessing or not because i e interval between may papers were rather short and i had 3 papers on my last day, which is absolutely not that good. u guys shldnt not attempt that.hahaha i had no idea y i bidded for these modules(out of which 2 were not my major) with full knowledge that they would be on e same day. i must be some kinda implicit sadist! (whatever u decipher that to mean) and im not kidding. well, i wont wana do it again next sem though. but i must say its pretty fun (implicit sadist resurfacing) and im quite sure im 1 of e 1st few in NUS to end exams so soon. everyone must be jealous of me now. but i had 3 papers in 1 day!
anyway, i have this urge to start planning next sem already. i cant wait for it to start and learn new things again. yet i dont really like the long journey to NUS, carrying my heavy bag(its's always heavy no matter how i try to pack minimally). modules next sem are gona be heavier as they always do as the semesters pass. havent decided on anything concerte though...planning can be quite fun but scary too
was scanning through e modules on the website (probably not the ones available for next sem, but they more or less remain the same). chanced upon my lecturer's webpage. im really grateful to have him as my lecturer. he's really 1 of a kind. for those who are taking that module next sem, pray hard he teaches u.haha. anyway...his website had quite abit of resources and experiences. and well..he looked quite different as a student but from his appearance now, i wouldnt think that his student-hood was too far away though there's quite a difference. well, appearance was not my prime motive of mentioning the website,but rather...i was envious of the rich experiences he had during his student days...looking at all the beautiful pictures he had there,i would love to be in his shoes, but that seems so far away and unattainable...and i feel so cooped up and restricted here.so...not exposed enough. i wonder how many people will agree with me. but there's so much more to life than just hitting the books everyday, and reducing sleeping hours just to complete another chapter or to make sure everything gets in (although most of the time it diffuses out in e end) but yeah...oh well, im guilty of that too. seriously guilty. wishful thinking wont take u far.in fact it may not take u anywhere.hahaha but the idea of being unsuccessful is so over-powering that u sort of reject ur own determinism...u guys agree?
uni's getting more interesting by the days...but time really flies (i know i mention this in almost all of my pathetic numboer of entries but its really true. maybe only for those who fully utilise it because they will realise it.)its been a year. i wouldnt say much has happened but i definately gained experiences and i think i've changed abit from these experiences. in which aspect, i dont really know myself.
now that exams have ended. im going full force with banging the keys.well, at least i hope to fully utilise my full potential. i shall practice utility maximisation.haha time to contact karen again
and orchestra will be starting soon..which means weds and suns are spent in NUS
actually im still trying to discover my feeling towards orchestra practices resuming. its scary, i would say (not the practices per se but the feeling of not knowing the feeling. understand? i bet not) but yeah...its quite a sad feeling too...

having talked so much in this 1 entry, i would like to say that im glad no one visited my blog! yeah and i hope it remains that way. hahaha quite silly rite...y should i have a blog then...
can u believe i have a blog but would like no one to view it...

i dont expect an answer.haha

countdown =(

2006-02-18T07:18:00.000-08:00

today sucks. had a hard(more of e emotional side) day at work and came home to more mess. that's really terrible.
reality is setting in. may be wierd that im finding this hard but yeah...internal conflict, internal dilema. what am"I" really? inside...i dont know myself.
i just wana dream forever,unrealistic huh. if only it could be a "life" dream. yeah, im dreaming i know.
dirty bed, messy floor..........argh....why cant things just go right for once! i want a suspended bed.
anw, im sure marilyn is nice and will handle them well, i hope.
ok, im not supposed to have time for blogging.
to u "get ur life in place."

my heart...

2005-12-13T03:58:00.000-08:00

wat a scary day...i always thought i was in pink of health.
hey peeps, have u guys experienced an acute pain somewhere near ur heart? well, i've been getting that kinda pain for sometime...it comes on and off, causes great discomfort. yesterday proved to be another unlucky day when i experienced that pain again. its was so sickening! and it lasted for hours, overnight, until today.
hence, i went to the nearby polyclinic today to find out its cause. at 1st, i thought it was nthg serious bcos im still young rite, and im so healthy! my diet and all is perfectly fine,wat could happen...
so, i was told to take my ECG reading and i was off to follow the doc's instructions in another room. then i returned with e results. the doc stared for quite sometime. she asked afew qns and told me to wait for awhile. she disappeared to the next room and returned sometime later. then she started...do u have any family history of heart related problems? and afew other qns. then she explained my results to me. apparently, my hearbeat signals were inverted, which is bad. then she told me to call in mum and explained e results once more. and she reccommended me to go to changi hospital's A&E. sounds so serious. she said if i had just 1 abnormal reading, she could just brush it aside, but i had like 4-5 abnormal readings...gosh....
ok, so then we made our way to changi A&E. again, i was told to take another ECG. again, e results were abnormal. haha this time e doc said "if u were older, i would diagnose this as a heart problem. but since u're still young, dont worry." so im suppose to monitor myself. nonetheless, i took an x ray. thankfully, my lungs were fine but i found out another thing from e x ray.the doc said i had slight scoliosis! ok i didnt noe that too.
okay enuff is enuff, better not take anymore tests. haha joking, those who experienced similar pains as me, better quickly go for tests for early detection.
those who havent experience any pain, prevention is better than cure. so watch what u eat and do okay dear frens...

2005-12-06T07:17:00.000-08:00

went for a movie wif sis today. enjoyed the show, so did she.
so many things has happened since i last updated. i dont noe where to start, so i shant start. okay im witnessing the deteoriation of my blog...haha how sad.

yes im updating noe

2005-11-22T19:31:00.000-08:00

at last...FREEDOM! time to take a breather...after e marathon of trials and tribulations, im finally at e end.who noes wat the end result will be like. im dont wana noe, and i dont care, at least for now.
right noe, my mind is on the trip tomsia!!! yipee....going there to de stress. life here is very stressful. over there, i'll just spent my days chit chatting wif my aunties....and have fun! yay...i hope it doesnt rain later when we set off. half an hour more....
take care guys and all e best to those who are still in the torture process. =p

yay..or maybe not...

2005-10-27T09:28:00.000-07:00

ok good news. my group got an A MINUS (A-) for our presentation. that should be quite acceptable rite? though the minus jus brings everything down. thanks Dr chng for being so lenient! now for the completion of our project. the upheaval task. its back to sch on a sunday! bet i'll spent the whole day there.no choice lah. oh yeah thanks to mr eric for ur concern on my abscence on fri. my eyes are 3/4 closed now. really tired. lemme see...i havent done the detailed elaborations my fna project questions, i havent read thru peigan's econs notes, i havent read my text, i havent looked thru my ec2303 tutorial and lec notes, again, i havent read thru my fna tut again. i havent done so many things! HELP! and i havent done my readings for 2moro's sn tutorial!!! and there are like 7 readings!!!ok....impossible to read all. i've decided to take 33 straight to sch 2moro so that i have time to read thru some readings though i have this feeling that i'll be staring out of e bus window for most of the journey. its only 12.35am. i imagine e ppl mugging overnight in sch and me at home sleeping...ah got it! i will study in my dreams =)
ok guys pls lose sleep over mugging. its good.

ok did it again

2005-10-17T04:05:00.000-07:00

this is worse. so dipressing. haha but im glad i didnt choose to major in that. my tutor must be so disappointed with me. kk need to work harder again. im so scared he'll target me.ok there's still final year which will be tougher and e project which is already so tough. hahaha wat am i so happy about. everything will just get tougher silly me. luckily im not e worse.
so glad i finished my essay already. k need to hand that up 2 weeks later. there's still 1 more essay to go.
gtg study. bye.
i hate thursdays. ey are my most stressful days.

2005-10-14T06:14:00.000-07:00

as bad as i expected...but i cant blame anyone but myself.....i knew e facts were not in there. i knew i didnt quite get e points. i knew it wont go well when i saw e paper. and true enough all my assumptions were right.
quite surprisingly, my tutor said i did quite well. but i know i cant be compared to my counterparts cos ey all scored pretty well. anyway, i promised to work harder and do better e next time. disappointed,yes i am but actually i dont really have e right to feel that way rite...did spend sometime reading thru e notes and text but i didnt quite get all e information in there... and i suspect my tutor marked toooo leniently lah.he gave me 15/20 for my essy! i wrote crap....cant believe...my marks are not fantastic, but very much better than wat i expected. thanks for ur encouragement sir...
today's sn tutorial was quite enjoyable surprisingly. wasnt as dull as e previous weeks...maybe its bcos of e presentors. hahahaha.....glad my presentation is finally over. now for e next one, fan, next week.
i've gotta do all my term essays by this weekend. running out of time. i hope i have enough material to write a convincing one.
ok should i perform in e teachers' concert next year? im unsure. 1stly, may not renewing my contract next year. im afraid i will not haven enough time to spend on my work.
zhang lao shi wans me to perform with her too.....i'll see about that.
on top of all these, she wants me to do an accompiment for her student. argh....so many things...i really wish i could fufil all these but looks like i wont be able to.
have been sneezing all day...pls dont fall ill again....

mr arthur, come out from ur hiding place!

2005-10-07T06:27:00.000-07:00

this is totally frustrating....arthur cant be found....where is he??? im determined to find him man....cant believe his record is that sellable...he must really be somethingfantastic. even the tower records auntie commented on him. ok that's it. i HAVE to buy his cd.
hope HMV shows me some light....
cant wait for sunday...its like off-day.hahahaha....finally i can catch a movie. its been months...hai...ok i have a test 2moro. gtg go mug again.cya guys and all e best to me. *scrams*

so tired, so screwed...

2005-10-05T09:18:00.000-07:00

currently blasting maksim on my lappy. have this feeling that im gona wake my sis up. nah, she mus be in deep sleep.
ok, as usual, work ,work, and more work coming my way. its really never ending.
havent started on my term papers. so screwed right...and all my frens have already started. just what am i waiting for man??? some invitation.........wateva..........im jus procrastinating lah. cant help it...have lots of work to do that sometimes i kinda get sick of it and wished that i can jus breakaway from this hectic environment...but that's life i know...i bet i cant adapt to a stress-free life too. even when there's no stress, i'll give myself stress. so what's e diff.....haha
have a test on sat. quite worried bout it. havent done much practice and here i am blogging. see what i mean....gotta go for make up tut 2moro morning, and im ztill typing away...hahaha
this blog is jus meant for me to vent all my emontions.
oh 1 good new, no fna tutorial 2moro! yay....cos that means i can come home early and spent more time on my work!!! and prob squeeze in more time for piano playing! yay~ sounds like a great day ahead.
ok tata guys, i've just finished venting. gtg *ZOOM*

from me to dad

2005-10-01T10:38:00.000-07:00

Dad sent me a msg jus now. as usual...its full of sweet words...
Dad never 4gets us even when he travels....or even when he's bz...
Dad always puts us 1st....
Dad, u rawk!

many a time, when we are bz, we tend to forget those who are close to us. just look at me. a fine example. most of e time, it's dad who msgs me 1st, b4 i'll reply...sometimes i feel bad...

sigh...next week is another hectic week. gotta go for make up tutorials. screwed...

yucky day

2005-09-27T04:48:00.000-07:00

1st of all people...how was ur day?
mine was yucky and i dread today! i hate today and i hope it wont repeat itself though i have this bad feeling more bad experiences are coming my way. argh.....xian......
should i go for orchestra 2moro???
who has the ans to my qn?

what am i doing here?!?

2005-09-21T09:59:00.000-07:00

i've gotta stop procrastinating and switch off my laptop this once!
i wish i could do that this instant, but not when i've jus entered this page....ok, jus a short entry will do. while i kinda enjoy all my modules, jus this one module out of my five is making me yawn...i think its bcos the lecturer is not interesting and thus, have no lasting impact on us and we dont particularly enjoy it. in fact, if u ask around, 99.9% of the ppl taking this module will admit that ey are doing it for a breadth or jus to satisfy faculty requirements. how sad....but its true. hahahha sad to say, im one of the guilty ones. yeah...its to fufil fac requirements. i keep lamenting whenever i have to study it. thank goodness there's no mid term test. if not, i'll jus.....i duno...smoke my way thru. yikes.
ok today was an okay day.i studied quite abit in e morning then went for orchestra. fun fun fun. but kan kan didnt go today...so pin xiu had no partner and so i had to leave my "last week" partner to join pin xiu, and hence my "last week" partner was partnerless this week! wat a vicious cycle!!! and its all kan kan's fault. see what u've done. disrupted our whole arrangement! hahahah luckily she doesnt read this. im so fortunate to have mum pick me up at lavender station. thanks a million mum, and i mean it from the bottom of my heart.
the mid sem recess is coming to an end! and its not even a week.not fair. and orchestra is stopping soon for exams...which means we only have 2 more practices. jus when i've got familiar with my surroundings there.
anyway, i was jus being kay poh, looking thru friendster accounts...havent done that in ages. updated my own profile too but not e pics though. ok i'll do them later.
i feel so lazy...someone, anyone...help...kk i better end here and get to work. looks like i cant go for e class chalet on fri. chill guys...

tired

2005-09-19T10:28:00.000-07:00

i bet no one reads this blog. haha but shall jus type for e sake of typing and getting things out of my head. typing without a motive rather. jus realised that ppl around are updating so religiously. where did ey find ey time to do all that consistency? woah...self discipline or destress? okay,wateva...jus had a test last week. sucked. apparently it was easy but i only scored like 70++% (forget e exact marks, wont make a diff anyway) e point is, most of my frens (well, actually only 1) scored like 80+%! which puts me in a miserable sopt. u see...uni is not like jc or sec sch whereby your grades are determined by ur marks and which range ey fall under. it depends on the whole co hort. so if everyone is scoring 90% to full marks(which i strongly predict), then my fate will jus be a C grade or smthg more pathetic. argh....and this is my 1st test. so discouraging rite....i told my mum my marks. she was like "hey,not bad!" and i was like "mum....so wat if i apparently got an A grade? its not really A u noe...(and went on elaborating bout e transitional AND complicated grading system)" she retorted saying,"u already got an A, wat more do they want?" hahahaha all i could say was"I DUNO? they wan the best of the best! the cream of e crop"
and so....as we climb higher in the educational system, e challenges get tougher and e fight gets more intense. thinking back on my jc days when my principal often encouraged us and spurred us on by saying that once we cross the A level hurdle, all else can be done with ease. i beg to differ, now that im experiencing it. Of cos i enjoy learning new things, gaining new information and using up more brain cells from my limited reserves...admist the stress, NUSSO gives me something to look forward to each week although i have to lug mr cheeky(my violin) around for lectures on weds.
its 1.43am now and i jus finished reading thru my perfect competition notes,every bit of it. its actually quite easy to understand after all. but reading is one thing, applying is another. ahh....hahhaha
oh yes! we celebrated sarah's birthday on sunday. she had a mermaid barbie cake and a clown entertainer at her birthday party! she's a lucky kid. her party was so elaborate. she wore a pretty and sexy barbie dress to entertain her guest. how sweet....and not to forget her little cute and innocent sister, hannah....i jus adore her...she's so talkative now,mummering and blabbering. and with her soft brown curly hair...u cant wait to squeeze her. jus talk to her about barney and she'll get all excited. little children are jus sooo adorable.
ok...its really getting late. im supposed to follow mum to e airport 2moro to send dad off and then we'll go to our fav breakfast hangout, killiney kopitiam. ok...lemme think of wat to eat as i get ready for bed. goodnight guys...sweet dreams....

my new lappy

2005-09-04T07:57:00.000-07:00

yay, finally my lap top is functional...thanks to eddy. thanks so much dude!
anw...next week's e sch hols. but not for me...its work work work, and more hard work. hhmmm after doing the fna tutorial and attending e lectures, im quite glad i actually didnt take accounting as planned. I find econs so fun. wonder y i never took it in jc...hhmmm...e reasonings are so logical.i enjoy econs lec most. hahaha kk gtg.

Its been a long time

2005-09-02T08:04:00.000-07:00

finally, i find some time to blog. but i duno wat to say. i think i jus dont noe where to start. so many things has happened since sch started. no doubt im enjoying every bit of it but at e same time, feeling loads of stress, never ending stress and assignments... apparently, we were told in jc that once u pass A levels, everything would be a breeze. BOO S**T lah.dont take their words... its far from a breeze. but its definately a refreshing change. in uni, u cant jus slump urself on e seminar chair and jus absorb everything that people are saying. u've gotta have a view for everything and open that tight lipped mouth of urs. if u dont, fine...0 marks lor. yeah....so i've transformed from a mute to a chatterbox. no choice. its all forced upon. actually if u have e same fear as me, 1 trick is to sit as close to e tutor as possilbe. in that way, i shut e rest of the class out. yeah self illusion...but no choice.
ppl there are also very much competitive. so that is added stress. kinda diff from jc.or maybe its e jc that i came from.im not too sure.
making new frens is also a must. well, i have my fixed group of frens but in uni,but we dont take all 5 same modules. that means we hafta make frens...yup and i;ve made many many frens and frens of frens.glad im not alone...
nonetheless, uni life has its ups and downs, jus like any other institution will have. i guess, i life, nothing comes easy and we cant always have a smooth sailing road laid out for us. if that is the case, there will be no challenges and life would become mundane rite.
i wish all my fellow mates e best in their studies, and of cos to myself too.

sick...

2005-08-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

argh, missed my finance and accounting lec today. xian...was so looking foward to it, then in e end, i decided that im too ill to make it there. besides, even if i go, i wont be able to pay attention. still feel horrible though after n hours of sleep. flu bug, cold bug, wateva bug, u name it, i've got it. irritating...my nose has become a burning fireball...ouch...hurts when i sneeze or blow my nose.
i hope i can make it to sch 2moro. gotta collect lec notes from chip. dont noe if i;ll be meeting her. she's got psyco lec while i'll be haveing ec2303 lec.
i feel bored staying at home though i did some readings. jus enjoy e thrill of gog to sch and learning new things! brain food. im hungry.
anyhow guys...its e seventh month!!! and u noe smthg spooky, someone from my where im living actually fell of a building...and damaged e plants...poor twigs...heard that he's a 21 yr old guy. apparently, his wrists were slashed...aiyo...young,with a bright future ahead but everything's gone now. so ppl, dun do silly things yeah,
oh good news...i've got NUSSO welcome tea on weds! yay...e day i've been waiting for. hope i'll be well enuff to go so that i dun hafta rush home after my lec.
brrrr...feel so chilly now...
think i've to go to bed sitting up right. somehow i choke on my mucus. grosss hor. oh my, jus realised i've to wake up at 6am!!! argh!!! i noe i'll be able to drag myself out cos its ec2303 lec! yay...wat am so happy bout? its stats...but anyhow, i tk its fun!
okie gotta go rest and re-recharge. ciaoz and tc my beloved frens...

Bsck to e Books mates

2005-08-12T08:40:00.000-07:00

Alas, we back to all e eyebags and sleepless nights spent mugging. i see myself all buried in my books...argh. jus look at all e readings we have to do! dun worry pals, we're all in it together.
together we stand, divided we fall...oh wat am i thinking.
my eyes hurt from e lack of sleep and my legs hurt from all e walking up and down the stair-laden NUS. its jus so stairy!!! up down up down up down...we take a lift to level4 everyday but in e end our lec theatre is on level 1, jus somewhere else.
bidding round 3D jus ended today and boy am i glad that i finally got what i wanted. thank e gods. cant imagine all e trouble i'd have to go thru if i didnt get em. and to think there were only 2 vacancies left!!! im so lucky!!!
okay but e bad news is, i'll only be wif chip for 3 lecs...actually that's bout e majority of my modules. shant complain. my timetable is so chaotic. lecs all over e place with gaps of like 6 hrs in between. urgh...hate it but have to live wif it.
travelling in NUS is terrible man. esp taking e feeder busses. we need more feeder busses man. its always sooo packed and we're always left wif cramped and squashed steps to stand on.
my legs ache....i need a chauffer to work 2moro....ouch...argh...but im so looking forward to teaching all my innocent students
next week will be a better one...i've new modules to attend. wish me luck, in understanding of cos.

the orientation that was not to be

2005-08-02T09:37:00.000-07:00

wierd, i signed up for orientation, paid $15 but didnt go for 90% of it.
hahaha wondered y i even signed up. well, actually my fellow mates and i needed help for bidding. we're like freshies and totally lost bout e new system. every freshie freaks out, trust me. so we decided that since we needed e help of our seniors, we should attend. so e phone call came 1 day b4 e orientation. i was told that seniors will bring us into e com labs to do our bidding on e 1st day of orientation cos that's e day that bidding starts and we're all anxious bout it. who noes, we only discovered that ey were not doing e bidding on that day! felt so cheated. newae, we decided not to waste time and left b4 e mass dance. sorry guys.
chiong-ed home to bid and thank goodness, i've got all e modules i wanted. all 5! lucky me. i hope i'll cope well, and my frens too.
made afew new fren. but due to my absence from orientation, i've bonded tt well as e rest of em. mich,lyn n yuesi...we practically skipped everything together. felt kinda bad,but we're not e cheering and games kinda ppl lah...i dislike getting my voice hoarsed and im sick of all e bonding games. actually frankly, e whole idea of going for o week was to get bidding help. losers rite...hahahaha...
well,at least we attended e inauragation ceremony...wasnt tt bad. saw all e VIPs in cute floppy hats. then there was an accapella group that sung somewhat in tune with afew inevitable off-pitched notes, according to my ear drums.
was supposed to do flag day today but hee hee,we didnt attend again. sorry yet again. nonetheless, i still did my bit ok...or at least mum did my bit for me. u see, i went to e temple to pray and went to e nearby chintown oodcentre for brunch. it was there that i met this year2 girl who's from NUS too. so mum donated generously. yay...
hey, did u guys watch e president star charity show? i saw fei xiang's performance. boy does he look like a mannequin! or maybe ken, barbie's boyfriend. urgh...shivers....dun u guys agree. he looks kinda fake, as if he's gone under e knife. and he was singing that song "xi-li-li-li-li-li....hua-la-la-la-la..." ok, chip betta not read this or she'll jus burst out in laughter...
smthg funny happened as mum was driving along e road today. at e bugis trafficlight, turning into e cityhall mrt lane, there was a lady at e pedestrian corssing. she was making her way back to e office i guess,since its after lunch hour. as she was crossing e road, her heels broke and she continued walking only to feel smthg missing. it was then that she realised what was wrong and u-turned back to pick up e broken heel. all e motorists and pedestriand were laughing at her. (including me *guiltily*) poorgirl....to make things worse, it was raining! "she mus be limping her way to e nearest shoe shop", i thought to myself.
ahhh....hahahha.ok tts e last laugh. no one else is to laugh at her.
have been mastering pathetique and toccata. more or less figured out everything. intended to do so b4 sch formally starts.
yawn...tired...
happy studying my fellow mates! enjoy ur last leg of education journey...

CHIP! NO~

2005-07-19T07:37:00.000-07:00

omg...getting butterflies in my tummy...and this is all chip's fault.
today's checkup was not as naked as ey said it would be. everyone was like "chey, like that only" hahahha. but it was a darn embarrassing day. how would freshmen like us noe that 95A terminates at NUH? argh!!! so embarrassing! we were LOL in e bus when e auntie raised her voice across the bus seats "hello,excuse me, go down" And jus b4 she said that, i was wondering to myself, y is evryone getting down? we even shifted seats when others got down so that we could sit together and be comfortable talking. omg...i bet everyone who were previously in e same bus were secretly giggling at us. And we 4 smart alects jus turned away and walked all e way to e medical centre from NUH. i'll never take 95A ever again! nonetheless, it was a refreshing morning walk rite my fellow sua-ku mates. hee jus joking.
over at e medical centre, e nurse told me to sign at a dotted line which said "sign if u're not pregnant" cos i overlooked tht part. then there was a guy beside me and he thought e nurse was talking to him. So he said "oh, ok." the nurse retorted "no, that's not for u!" e guy read e line and realised. ahahahaha so funny. but i didnt catch it till awhile later. WOLS. yeah.
when all was done, chelle, yuesi n i went to yuesi's uncle's prawn mee stall for brunch. e food was good. and its so near NUS! double yay. bought han jing pang home for mum n myself. i love e red bean and butterfly one while mum likes e salted one. yummy. i love anything that has red bean. mmmm.....finger-licking good.
came home at 12+pm played my dip songs till bout 5pm then went with mum to send dionne for twain's concert @ e esplanade. afterwhich, i went to old airport hawker centre to get dinner for mum sis n myself. i had yong tau foo as usual. 2 lady's fingers, 2 xiao bai cai, 2 tau kuas and 1 bunch of long beans. jus realised how well e auntie there noes me. i didnt haf to say anything and she already noes how i wan it. mum had wanton mee and rojak from dunman foodcentre and sis had mee pok dry. hhmmm, y do i go thru e trouble of listing all these down...i wonder.
anyway...im trying to get hold of recordings of my dip songs. anyone has any (or both) of these?

Bach toccata no.3 BWV912 in D
Beethoven sonata in C minor (pathetique)

I thought e latter should be quite accessible through e net, but apparently not. shall keep trying.

yay, can wake up late 2moro! im so not used to waking up early like today. gotta go to ms ang's hse to do accompaniment 2moro. cant wait for thurs=) its e best day of e week!

enjoy ppl~

cuzzie's place

2005-07-16T10:01:00.000-07:00

hello everyone. im blogging from my dear old(jus joking) gren cussie's home now.
her keyboard is so smooth....makes me wana type.
and she's bathing now, so i get to use e com for awhile...
hhmmm...work was fun today. geena's a real joy to teach. so thankful i got her as my student. cheers to u girl! she made my day. in fact, all my students did well today. good children.
im so proud of christine and jamie. seen improvement cos ey practised!!! yay...it really makes a difference u noe.
looking forward to seeing u guys next week=)
will be kinda bz next week. got my NUS health checkup.but i have to go alone to that ailien place! nooo....
then there's matriculation day...which i have to roam on my own....argh...
but all in all, imstill kinda looking forward to all these events cos it means im 1 step closer to uni life!!! cant wait to start proper studying again. i noe i might regret wat im saying now.but oh, who cares man...im jus saying wat i feel now.
ciaoz...goodnight mates!

thanks

2005-07-11T10:23:00.000-07:00

happy birthday mum.
thanks for letting me go for dip lessons. im excited!
now talking to vanny. its e longest time we've ever talked in history!

Go bro!

2005-07-10T09:33:00.000-07:00

Before 7.30pm...
Today is bro's concert day.he's playing solo!!! not that its his 1st time. But its with SWO. That's BIG thing. bro's a pro-band person. he's super good with e band, and i mean ANY band! not that im bragging bout him cos he's my bro, but im jus stating e facts, really.

After 10pm...
Well done brudder...u played awesome-ly :-) sure is stressful playing solo with SWO hor. cos u looked tired after that. sweaty palms?!? hhmmm...and also, nice bouquet of flowers hor...e impt is not e flowers but e flower girl right...hahahaha...kk jus being cheeky. newae, u're at some international youth wind orchestra thingy now. have a great week there. i hope my fast-depleting battery power can last me a week cos e charger's wif u.

it's mum's birthday today.happy birthday to u, mum. muacks...love ya loads! i've got another pressie for u later. hope u liked MAX. he's cute right? wif that funny balding hairdo.haha...any way, i enjoyed e slice of ur mocha cake. yummy. thanks to sis for choosing it!
hhmmm...cant wait for sat again. cant wait to teach geena and christine. ey're so adorable. it's a joy teaching them. im kinda lucky all my students are not naughty. cheers to all of u guys!

Bake, bake, bake

2005-07-08T08:29:00.000-07:00

baking is so much fun. but i wont have that much time to do stuff like that when school starts. that's pretty soon. i spent practically e whole day baking. kinda tiring though...there's pound cake, butter cake, and chocolate chip and walnut cookies. yummy. im lov'in it! hahaha.
i duno wat to say next. bye bye. will edit this post when i find things to say.

2005-07-03T01:11:00.000-07:00

Its a hot sweltering afternoon. looking out of the window, i see bikini-clad girls sun-tanning. boy are those people asking for skin cancer! a little vitamin E is good but not soaking urself in UV rays for 1 whole day! that's too much. u'll jus become chao da! and i see em on other days of e week too...wat a disservice to their skin.
anyway, bro woke me up from sleep again! urgh...can u jus let me have my beauty sleep.and stop pestering me even when e door is locked! argh...if its smthg impt that u wana ask from me lik $$....ok fine. but earphones? so mad. my sleep's disrupted and i was having an interesting dream...now i duno its ending. ok nvm...soon after he left, i closed my eyes and tossed and turned cos i cldnt get back o sleep. but not long later came an unwanted phone call and nobody seemed to be picking it up. so my guilt conscions told me that i cant ignore it incase it was an impt call. so i dragged myself there. and it was mum telling me that she'll be home in 10mins and would need my help to carry baggage from cold storage. so i unwillingly dragged my feet to get my clothes to change out of my nightdress. brushed my teeth but didnt have time to wash my face. yikes. decided to have a glass of water. jus after a sip, i heard e shrieking lock of e car. i knew mum was back. so i rushed down. how would i know that mum was simultaneously going up wif all the baggage? so i headed back up knowing that her grumbling awais me. true enough, mum was in e kitchen emptying the plastic bags. she said that waiting for one of us is like waiting for eternity. mum...i rushed down!
nvm.......mum still made yummy cham-pa-lang (everything mixed up in our language). had eggs,mushrooms,tomatoes,bacon and sausage. yummy, though i didnt eat e bacon and didnt like e sausage.
read e papers while having breakfast. saw liu hong mei again. her face has been in e papers for e past week. was indeed a greusome murder. murdering someone is scary enough.but who would go a next step as to cut e body up in pieces??? urgh*shudders* takes alot of guts---and strength. then there is another article which is quite hilarious. the article's by siva choy. titled "misery loves acronyms". here's a list of acronyms that he used:
SAD= seasonal affective disorder
MAD= money affective disorder
BAD= beauty affective disorder
FAD= fashion affective disorder
ADD= attention deficit disorder
so look down e list and im sure u'll be able it identify urself wif one of em. im MAD!
u guys should read all e small articles in e sunday paper.can be quite interesting.
rewind to sat...
yups, its mimi's bdae. i sent her a card i made and the bracelet i bought her. tricked her that NUS sent an impt letter so she'd check her mail box. she actually bought it over! hahahaha then when i asked her if she'd checked her mail box, she said "yeah.its not NUS.its U!" she was so touched....well...i thought if i couldnt pass it to u on e actual day, sending it on time is e next best thing i could do. hope u like it and not throw it away. we'll be meeting up soon:) i shall bring u to eat yummy cakes.
grenadine's back! my long lost cousin is finally back. she's grown all thin..looked like her books ate her up. poor cussie. mus take care of urself and not skip meals...we went to dunman for dinner. had ah seng's wanton mee, porridge, carrot cake and lau hong's rojak and tekong's soya bean. yummy. it was great meeting u cussie. do take care and come over another time yeah?
my throat's been giving me hell. every morning i get phlegm that's chocked up. and have a hard time getting it out.so i'd jus swallow it down.argh.its been 1 week aldy! so irritating. haf to stay away from milk as adviced by tab. mum's bringing me to e docs 2moro if i still dun get well.
take care of ur health guys.
ciaoz

urgh!

2005-06-26T09:19:00.000-07:00

argh...i typed a whole long blog worth a few thousand words! and its all gone! all bcos of a stupid power failure yesterday. all was gone :-( tried recovering but nthg would appear. jus as well i guess cos that entry wasnt reallya pleasant one for the eye. oh well...not fated to read. hee hee...and i cant remember the stuff i wrote too well. so jus 4get bout it.
today we had a GREAT dinner. too bad sis didnt get to try it. mum made pasta wif my help of cos...so i learnt another dish today. and it was delicious+marvellicios! u guys must try it. how ar....i oso duno. anyway we had pasta, salad and bro n sis had roast chicken too. i dont take meat so no chicken for me. but i ate e baked potatoes and carrots that were cooked together wif e roast chicken. all i can say is YUMMY! thanks mum for e wonderful mouth watering dinner!
oh yeah, breakfast was great too. i had pancakes and scrambled eggs as promised. so yummy....mum cooks her eggs wif cheese...oozing cheese....
after breakfast, i went down to wash the car. management here sucks man. cant believe ey locked the taps! so not resident-friendly!boo~ and the taps that weren't locked, there was no water! double BOO~~ so i stormed to the guard house and ey told me ey dun have e keys for e tap and e only available ones are on the 1st floor. so i went around looking and couldn't find any! so...to my disappointment, i had to go back up to get water from home and carry e heavy bucket back down. bcos e water was not enuf nd i was too tired to go down again, there were tiny soap prints left on e car...sorry mum...job not well done.
went back up after cleaning to wash up e sponge and cloth and complained to sis...then had apples,grapes and kiwi to cool myself down.
after watching "get real", i had my next assignment. that was to clean the toilet. dressed up wif masks and gloves, as instructed by mum. she said she wont let me wash unless i put on those safety precautions bcos coming into contact (smelling and touching) with the detergents arent good for my skin. mum noes best, so jus listen.
had difficulty breathing while washing cos i had to wear two masks instead of jus one. apparently one is too thin and wont help much. ended up breathing in deeply and inhaling more chemicals. how ironic. oh "wateva"(quoted from little sis)...spent bout 1 hr there till it was sparkling clean. was kinda weared out by all the scrubbing by then. decided to rest and read e papers. reports on the SPG (be it the main topic or side topic) are jus sprowlling(is that how u spell it?) all over pages. even in interview...gosh...congrats spg, u've gotten your craved attention. btw i think i noe her...she was from the same sch as me. how come she turned out so differently? hhmmm....well at least she respected her parents enough to take the pictures off. ah well...thas her life. live it your way...
mum's thinking of going for mad's new kaya toast, although we both agree that the pic already has "horrible" written all over. she jus wants to try it. well...its only $2 on weekdays...which means jus eboth of us. but im not sure if i can wake up b4 11 mum....we'll see if u can convince me to get outta bed by then.
gona get some sleep soon...after i read my mag.
ciao...ad slp early guys! gdnite and sweet dreams!

food,food,glorious food...

2005-06-14T08:52:00.000-07:00

had yummy treat today. mum n i ventured to thomson area upon the reccomendation of michelle chia. if u guys watch that tuesday show...erm...think its called "hawker walk, coffee talk" i was attracted to that show cos fiona xie's e host. newae...after dropping dionne off at costa sands, we headed down to try the delicacies there. went in circles bout 4 times before we found parking at this carpark. but apparently, that carpark belongs to a food centre nearby. and if we were to park there, we had to eat at that food centre. so no choice, mum n i unwillingly checked out e stalls there. as usual, i spotted yong tau foo and immediately decided on that. mum had chicken rice. surprisingly, the food turned out to be quite good actually...so it wasnt so much a torture after all.
after our unplanned meal, we walked a short distance to the prata shop. each of us had a piece of prata.i thought it was quite good but mum thought otherwise. well...it was not that bad, jus nothing special. as e other reccomended eateries were not along the same row of shops, we walked back to e car.
on the way to thomson plaza, i caught a glimpse of e other eateries jus on e other side of e road! so i quickly informed mum

me: mum! that's e one!
mum: where?
me: there! there! u see that one?
mum: sure not? aiya we're aldy past that
me: hhmmmm....ok,then forget bout it.
mum: i park at thomson then we walk ok?
me: ok lor (unwillingly)...

it turned out to be a deserving trip cos we bought quite alot of cakes n pastries....there were swiss rolls, durian wells, chicken pies, curry puffs, tapioca cake, blueberry cheese....ok salivating again...yeah, e long walk was definately worth it! u guys should go try it! e shop's called "DINO" very near thomson plaza. mus bring tab there one of these days. she likes sweet treats. right tab? there's this shop beside selling chicken rice.also a reccomendation. e funny thing is that there's a pic of a crab on the signboard. like no link wif chicken rice hor?hhmmm...
mum bought kim ku kueh. its ang ku kueh, jus that ey didnt add colouring. i've personally never seen anything lk that b4.
interesting day. but i think e tredmill's gona haf to be my best fren now...

e nite out

2005-06-06T00:28:00.000-07:00

this is a late post, a very late one actually. as usual, e laptop is down AGAIN! we're such terrible and horrigible com users. definately not a fren of technology. its frustrating. y is e immunity of our laptop so weak?!?! or are we jus "suay" oh...wateva...
bro's in australia now. he's been there for the past 3 days already. chelle's enjoying herself in thailand too. and she's there with FRENS!!! so envious...i wish i could go somewhere also...
went for bro's concert on weds. it was a good one. so far, i've faithfully attended all his band concerts. ey were great. and the stage band act was especially hilarious. we had a good time luffing our hearts out. well, this time we didnt hafta endure all the encore shouting cos bro had to rush to e airport for his trip. thank goodness. encores are always so draggy...
there's still like slightly less than 2 more months till sch starts! i cant wait! but wat can i do but wait. urgh!
oh! share wif u guys something innocent that happened during work. i have a student who always makes my day wif all her witty and innocent comments. she's jus sooo adorable! and i always share this wif my fellow fren and colleague, liza. and we always haf a good time luffing it out. well, it so happens that all my students say very funny, cute, and innocent stuff that makes teaching less boring.
ok...here goes.
we were doing theory and as usual, when she had full marks for a page, i would reward her wif stickers. yeah, little girls like stickers rite...so jus to encourage her, i give her nice stickers. mind u, its not e boring star star kind okay...
anyway, i said, "oh! very good, all correct." and fished out my multi-coloured smiley face stickers from my stash. but because most of the nicer colours were given away already, she had little choices. nonetheless, she chose that had more of human skin colour. then, she turned to me and said,"my mummy said human colour is "b*t*h"(figure out the other 2 letters urself.should be kinda easy) colour. giggling, i said to her "u mean beige colour?" she argued back," nooo, b*t*h" colour!" ahahahahahha i couldnt stop giggling though i tried to restrain myself to e best i could and tried not to ruin my professionalism too much. but it was simply soo innocent that i kept smiling. then wif a curious look, she turned to me and said "teacher, why u so happy ar?" "isit bcos i got all correct?" and i encouragingly said "yes, that's excellent! keep it up ok?
then we preceeded on to do e next page. again, she had everything all right. this time, she smartly demanded," i want the bigger ones" (referring to my stickers).
she really brightens up my day. muacks to u little cutie =)
my neck's beginning to ache. e com monitor is abnormally placed so that the screen will be clear. i know it sounds wierd and most of u would be going "huh?!" but yeah...e screen's going soon, very very soon. and it gets blur most of e time. surprisingly, it remains clear only at this particular angle. so yeah, it explains it all. but tilting ur head at a 45 degree angle for sometime will result in a strain.
so guys, till e next blog, ciao...

what am i doing?

2005-05-22T08:19:00.001-07:00

currently in front of e TV watching "a beautiful mind". this is the second time im watching. e 1st was in JC. thanks to mdm yew. im sure all members of 03s203 wil remember our "one -of-a-kind" GP teacher mdm yew. we were so damn lucky to have her as our teacher man...thanks god for that. newae, she aired many movies during lessons! of cos ey were related to our then GP topics. but ey were not e looked-forward-to-but-was-boring-in-e-end sort. i really miss her lessons...
mum n i are great fans of THE APPRENTICE. we were sooo looking forward to it and cleaned up all edishes b4 then. but when 9pm news ended, a beautiful mind played. then i told mum the devastating news. its was actually next week. how disapoointing. and its the finale episode!!! will it be kelly or yucky,undeserving jennifer? she dont deserve a contrat man. no way!!!! boo~ i cant call her a bimbo too cos she's a lawyer(proof). she doesnt contribute but claims credit. wat kinda worker will she be? donald trump, open ur yeys and wake up!
anyway, im totally busted now. crawled outta bed to meet tab @ amk. the journey was sooo long. almost slept in e bus but prevented my eyelids from falling due to bad bus experiences.(i'll NEVER forget that fateful day!) we walked around that area and went to bishan j8. e last time i went there was erm....when ar? oh yeah, i think its wif someone.isit?lost in my memory.haha but its changed quite abit. more happening now. i saw some cute shirts but ey were quite costly.but nice though...i need clothes for uni. cant be wearing e same ones all e time.
came home @ 6+. had yummy salad,salmon,potatoe wif sourcream,corn, snow peas...thanks mum n sis fot tt yummi-li-cious meal!
oh no, i feel like eating a mini conetto now...stop me....maybe i'll haf dark choc instead. much healthier.
happened to chance upon someone's blog jus now. tt person's blog has became an agueing ground for people. its soo embarressing! ey're argueing over 1 person. oh well, e owner, i guess, is a rather immaure person.grow up!
newae, shant be pocky.i'll jus go haf my choc now. yummy cant resist any longer.
shall go bathe afer tt n zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz its hol 2moro! yuppy!!!

what am i doing?

2005-05-22T08:19:00.000-07:00

the busy day

2005-05-21T08:27:00.000-07:00

dragged my sleepy,tired self outta bed today @ 6.20am. was supposed to wake up @ 6.10 but i jus couldn't open my eyes. yawn yawn yawn. a long day ahead...
NUS talks started @ 9am. as blur as i am, i originally tot it started @ 10am. luckily alert jeanette told me tt i got e time wrong. hurriedly msged chelle bout e change in time. yups, 1 hour of sleep minused.
left house a little later than planned. andi guess tts y i missed 12! it took freaking long for e next one to arrive.while waiting, there was this ang mo couple sitting beside me and behaving soooo intimately in broad daylight. yucks! totally disgusted! ok..like hotel 81 is jus around the corner...the guy took a pause to check if e bus had arrived and when he realised that it was nowhere in sight, he simply turned back and continued from where he left off wif e girl. yikes...i felt so super duper ubber dubber awkward beside em that i decided to make a 90 degree turn and then walk to the back of the bus stop.argh.
so then i was late to meet chelle n yuesi @ lavender.sorry guys. i 4got to apologise to u both jus now.hope u 2 read this. we were stuck in e train for quite sometime due to e long journey but we actually reached much earlier than expected. and also much much earlier than e rest of e crowd. thanks to chelle's alertness, we got off e right stop and headed for e canteen for a snack. not long later, the talks started and we talked to fac members as we browsed the booths. guess wat? we even went into a sociology professor's room for a chat! he invited us in! woah...tt was so welcoming!ppl there are so friendly and so ever-willing to help freshmen like us. thanks so much guys. great job.we collected many pamphlets,brouchers blah...sorta help us to decide our major or maybe jus to carve out a rough sketch as to wat we wana do. cos we're all not sure yet.
we had fun at e language booths,esp e thai booth. ey had thai desserts for us. and one of e lecturers offered to demonstrate how to eat em. in turned out that she actually liked the kueh so much that she had been offering to demonstrate eating it to everyone who visited their booth. hahaha she was so cute cos she admitted to her greed.hahahah. we had a good time luffing.

it was about 12.35pm when we left NUS. i had to head for the music sch for work while michelle met her mum n yue si met her frens.
it was a long journey there but i got there 1 hour b4 my 1st lesson.tts super early. anna was shocked that she kept checking e time.hahaha.liza came back from lunch not long after i arrived and we toked and luff so much.were describing all our cute students. all e innocent things ey asked us. pure innocence!
by te time lessons ended, i rushed down to meet chelle @ orchard cos we were supposed to go for our class gathering. we were late. but it turned out that e gathering was postponed till 2moro!!! argh...wasted trip and worse still, chelle had a bad headache.poor girl... newae we dined at NYDC. i had vegetarian speghetti and cuppacino.yummy. chelle had roast chic speghetti and cuppucino. yummy,except for e roast chic. i detest meat, except fish.so tt doesn't make me a vegetarian. maybe half...
we talked so much while dining @ NYDC that time passed so fast. e sky was dark and we decided to head for home.
long n tiring day...when im wif chelle, every minute is spent talking.hahaha from crap to serious matters. we jus talk bout everything under e sun! and she always ends up luffing @ thins i say and do.yea~tts chelle for u~
gotta get up early(by my standards) again 2moro cos im gona meet another bestie, TAB! yay!!! its been quite awhile...
okie, gona sleep now

shopping with mummy!!!

2005-05-19T11:54:00.000-07:00

today mum was supposed to bring me to have kway chap (minus all e meat and intestines of cos). but in the end she came to my room door and said "gayl gayl, we go to CK Tang want?"
hahaha with that cheeky grin...can i not say yes ma? apparently, she saw a big advert in the straits times with all the bags and discounts.immediately attracted.hahaha
so we headed there. mum bought a bag and a pair of shoes. she was satisfied with her buys.
oh ya! guess wat? i met myu sec3 form teacher,mrs quek at e shoe section! so surprised!!! pleasantly surprised. jus afew days ago, i was thinking bout how she is and stuff...then i got to meet her today. we talked abit and she updated me on her current job n stuff.i updated her with mine too.ahhh she still looks the same. but she couldnt really recognise me at 1st sight.hahaha have i changed that much guys? not much right?
kk shall skip the minor details...
fast foward...
while we were walking to the exit of CK Tang, mum kept detouring to the bags section AGAIN!!! i had to tell her to look straight and walk! then i suggested to her "ma, i think u n claire should go shoe and bag shopping together." and she said "nonono, cannot go with her. if not, she will end up buying everything and i end up with nothing. If i go with you, i buy everything and u buy nothing." hahaha...i had a hearty laugh. well, e bags and shoes were not suitable for me cos im still school-going after all. those are more for working purposes right ma? it would be impractical for me if i bought em. and a total WASTE of $$!!! yeah...
we had killiney kopitiam kaya toast before heading home.
later in the evening, we met claire after her work, at arkway parade cos she needed to buy stuff for her company dinner later today.
reached home bout 9.40pm. watched abit of the chinese show and since there was no appealing guest on "kang xi lai le" , i decided to bathe since tab was gona call anytime soon. true enough, while i was in the toiloet, i heard my "fly away" ring tone. choing out of bath, only to realised it stopped already.
yay...cant wait to eat my meat-less kway chap later!!!.
sat will be a busy day...gotta meet chelle at 9am @ buona vista! tt means gotta leave house by 7am!!!argh! which means i haf to wake up by 6.15am!!! double argh!!! tts madness. i've been lazing in bed till 11+am each morning for e past 5 months! sigh...gotta get losta sleep.
will be metimg tab sometime soon too...yay!!! long time never see her already. bet she's got lots to tell me=)
gdnite guys. yawn...

dedicated to my dear friend...

2005-05-19T02:42:00.000-07:00

to: my long lost friend...

hay pal, i guess u should know that im referring to you.u've had a challenging time of your life. but u're not getting over it and over coming it. congrats to you for seeing the light! u've done a service for youself. yups, its a great favour. i've been thru wat u've been thru, though not as hurting. but wat's most important is that we both managed to live on right? look at me! happily enjoying life now.hahaha. haf been worried bout u lately cos i noe u're esp vulnerable when it comes to this kinda situations. i mean, most girls will too right? well,guys too, but i guess ey're stronger...not sure though. dont worry, time will heal. actually, many ppl are concerned bout u. but i guess we dont need to add anymore wrinkles to out forehead cos u've sorted out your thoughts and found a new aim in life! good for you girl! do take care, and we'll meet up soon=) regain ur bubbly self like i've always known you to be yeah~

from: your long lost friend...and one of your worried friends...

hai...the problems that people face in life...some can be so torturing.y? y? y? i dont think i'll get that answer anytime soon.unless some God answers it via my dream. tt'll be cool...talking to God in your dream aye~
of all the problems i've seem people go thru and experienced myself, relationship related problems tend to be the worse to deal with. well, its only human nature to feel hurt. but most importantly, we get over problems and solve them. in the 1st place, if the problem was not started by you, then, jus get over it and continue with life as how it was before (at best). if u're the problem creator, then, do something and admend!
the worse thing a problem can do is to leave a stigma and puncture your hope,confidence or faith (or even all). that's the sad part. i guess one of these is inevitable but try at best to remain optimistic yeah guys? hahaha do i sound like a counsellor?
sigh sigh sigh...jus by reading my fren's blog brought back memories...sad ones in particular...dont get me wrong if u're reading this pal. i dont mean to blame you for giving me your blog add.hahaha in fact, on the contrary, i think i should thank you for reminding how fortunate i am to have come this far. thanks! u did me a favour.
i guess everyone has to encounter a big obstacle in order to gain huge success right?and there are not only relationship problems. dont forget bout finantial, spritual, blah blah blah...e list goes on. to all readers out there, jus wana tell u guys to be strong no matter how hard it is to stay positive. and always think of how fortunate you are as compared to others instead of dwelling on your problem. for you will suffer even more if you think too deeply into it.
hhmmm sounds like i have lotsa experience huh...nah, actually im no great position to give such sage-ful advice cos im only a 19 yr-old, yet to complete education, female!who am i man... jus penning my thoughts for those who are willing to listen.
hai...i've realised how much turmoil u've been thru. even started tearing while reading...u've gotta be strong and not lose hope, not like me...now i keep thinking back on myself...sigh...argh!cmon gayl, u've long gotten over e past. hahaha yeah.jus give me 5 mins and i'll be back to normal.
5mins later...normal me...
recently, i changed my msn nick to "im sooo hair-pee" and all my frens asked me wat am i happy about. i replied saying that tere's no particualr reason. im jus happy! when i think bout how fortunate i am as compared to others, im happy and contended. and i believe, its that valuable experience that thought me this. after that (exp), i realised that it's such a minor problem as compared to those i am about to face probably in soon-to-be uni life and more importantly, in LIFE! right now, i only hope to be able to remain this happy and persevere no matter what lies ahead for me.
to all who are troubled one way or another, remember that there'll always be a solution to all problems as long as u think rationally,calmly and u're willing to do anything reasonable to resolve the matter.
remember..."always look on the bright side of life! doo-do-doo-do-doo-do-doo-do" *sings*
sing-a-long!

my life's great!

2005-05-15T15:15:00.000-07:00

love my life!!! realised how much im enjoying life recently. i cant wait for uni to start, though i havent accepted e offers yet. but i guess i've more or less made up my mind on NUS. sorry NTU.give my place to another person.cant wait for lessons to start and experience wat uni life is like now that i've gone thru pri,sec and jc life. its gona be interesting. i do hope that i'll have time for everything i wana do though, and not jus studying. im looking forward to making new frens. are u? haha...its good to know that there'll be ppl there i recognise. familiar faces from school.
mum's finally got her oven! yay!!! i cant wait to make all the goddy yummy stuff. cakes, muffins, cookies, pies...yummy...eat n get FAT! hahaha. nah, i'll exercise all e excess away. hey peeps, e pool and gym's fully book =p
ying n hui shan came over jus now. we had a great time talking and updating each other bout our lives. its a pity yu hong didnt come though...its ok girl, another time perhaps. u take care yeah. she's not having e best time of her life now, apparently. dont worry, life still goes on no matter wat. i've experienced wat u're experiencing now. totally understand=) but time will heal ur wounds. nonetheless, i'll be there if u need me. *hugs*
hahaha kk... gtg now. sis is shaping mum's eyebrows now. she did a fabulous job for me for prom. now's mum's turn.

baking session @ chelle's house

2005-05-12T00:27:00.000-07:00

sipping green tea, eating chocolate biscuits...ahh...perfect tea-time. yummy. i jus love chocolate biscuits, and green tea jus compliments e taste. yum yum...
its so nice to wake up late after pulling myself outta bed e last 2 days.
met up wif my jc mates on tuesday. its our monthly meet-up.cool right, at least we make it a point to keep in touch. but anyway,we're going to e same course. watched kingdom of heaven and i realised i left my atm card at home. darn. tt means no $$ for foood. luckily chelle had notes to spare. she's loaded.hahaha joking.
after e movie and food, we went to bedok NTUC to get ingrediants for our baking session e next day. its gona be soo fun. chelle's got a new oven. i dont noe when mummy's gona get hers. i hope soon, so i can bake stuff n mess up e place.hee...
we took a cab back to chelle's house to tompang e stuff and i left soon after.

weds...
left house at 9+ so tt i can reach her house by 10am. woke up early to have breakfast. i cant do anything on an empty stomach. took 12 down. i thought i knew which stop to get off but apparently, i duno e place too well cos i got off at this place callled "lucky place" or smthg. so unlucky! the surroundings looked so unfamiliar so i took bus 38 cos tts an alternative bus. but it went straight to tanah merah station! over shot! ahhh tt was wat i feared. nvm....so i took 14 e opposite way and told chelle to wait 4 me at e bu stop. finally....i was there......after so many detours.
soon after we got to her place, we started preparing. gosh,preparation time took more than an hour! its so labourous! no wonder good cakes are so expensive. chop chop chop, grate grate grate...mix mix mix...finally, its was in the oven.
after bout 40mins, e top layer was burnt! noooo...all our hard work. but it was also e best part. i love burnt food. bad for health though. its cancerous. but i still like it =p
so we peeled e top layer and continued to bake e rest of it.
finally it was done. spreaded e cheesy layer and it was time for tasting! mmmmmm.....not too bad for e 1st time. chelle's grandma, auntie and sis tried it and their remarks were encouraging. thanks guys.
well, we had a fun time. right chelle? she made cheese pie for her family too. so sweet. hope our baking skills will improve soon.
i still remember hating home econs. so terrible. i remembered e time when we had home econs exam. had to make party food. i made cookies. erm, e colour wasnt nice at all though e taste was great. never judge a book by its cover rite. my horrible teacher sqirmed at e sight of my "charcoal-like" cookies. she took a bite and guess wat? she immediately spat it out!!! so rude!boo u lousy teacher. duno how to appreciate good stuff. double booooo... newae i never ate e stuff she thought us to make. yucks.
thank god im out of it. D&T was so much better. i did so well. my piggy bank was even up for exhitbition.good right...i still have it now.so proud of my work.
sec sch was so much fun. argh im still deciding wch uni offer to accept...will u guys help me?

its mummy's day

2005-05-09T16:28:00.000-07:00

ok,took a long m.c from blogging. sorry guys. i jus saw my tagboard. guess wat? i saw grenadine's message. oooo thanks cussie. os nice of u.
well, yesterday was mothers' day. how did u guys spend it? well, my family had a bbq! yupsy.
we went down to NTUC during noon time to get all our stuff. had some embarrasing moments there though. hahaha thinking of them makes me wana luff. n luff. n LUFF!
u see...sis went over to the butter section to choose e butter. and thinking that dad was jus beside her with the trolley, she blabbered on with her different opinions of the different types of butter there were. and al along, the guy she thought was dad, was staring at her curiously. and so was the auntie promoting cheese us afew steps away. and when she finally decided which to buy, she conveniently placed it into our mistaken trolley. and tt guy wearing a similar flowery patterned shirt as dad stared at her shockly. it was then that e promotion auntie and sis bursted out in laughter.hahaha. ok, totally embarressed.
then, we went over to giant while dad offered to help us put our trolley back and claim e 1 dollar.
while at giant,i was busy choosing frozen lamb parts for mum while sis was taking some other stuff. when i finally found a god pack, i thought i sis from e corner of my eye and asked her if it was okay while i was still looking down hoping to find an even better pack. but there was only silence. and i was thinking to myself y sis is ignoring me. then i got frustrated and said," EH! THIS ONE CAN ANOT?"
when i looked up, to my horror, it was actually another lady also wearing a green polo tee and jeans but NOT SIS!ahhh, now it was my turn. and as usual, dionne was already laughing hysterically. she jus said "jie, you should have seen that look on your face" and she continued luffing.
kk we finally wanted to pay for our stuff but all e queues were long and meandering! it stretched into columns and overflowed to other columns too. ahhh tts giant for u on weekends. sis suggested that she queue while we go to cold storage and buy salad. so we agreed and made our right down. saw ivy ee along the way promoting some stuff at e atrium.
finally got all our required stuff and made out way back to the carpark. upon reaching there, we saw dad munching on his all-time favourite monkey nuts. and thought to ourselves "on wonder dad didnt call eventhough we took super long " cheeky daddy.hahaha.
rushed home to season e food. had a good time masaging all the chicken,lamb,sotong,sting ray and prawns.
soon, it was 5pm and time to start the fire. dad n dionne made their way down to e pit while we got all e other nitty gritty stuff ready. not long later, e 1st batch of food was ready for consumption. yummy. i only ate sting ray,sausages,crabstick and marsmellows. drank vanilla coke. yummy...
time passed quickly and it was about 9.30pm when we started clearing cos we had to leave by 10pm and i didnt wana miss my favourite reality show, apprentice. there were left over corn and decided to give the snails a treat. cant believe ey actually ate buttered corn. wondered how it tasted to em...newae, we had a hard time clearing e charcoal from e pitt. luckily eddy was around to give me a hand. thanks eddy...
at e lobby, i opened the door for e rest and accidentally slammed e door on my hand when i let it go. ouch....sis freaked out and came to my rescue.thanks sis.im fine, dont worry. my flesh is tough.hahaha.erm sounds gross.
washed up all e stuff and mopped the kitchen floor.
ahhh finally done. made myself a cup of green tea and watched apprentice. did u guys catch it? cant believe jennifer is still there. she shld have been ousted long ago. didnt deserve any credit to stay there. and ivana should have stayed after all e sacrifices and contributions she made for her team. argh...
anyway, wat an evenful and memorabe day...thanks guys for making it one.
will be meetin up wif my usual group 2moro and going to chelle's hse to bake cakes! yay...cant wait!
cya guys...

im successfuapplause

2005-05-04T00:09:00.000-07:00

im so happie...sha-la-la-la-la...
its so nice to be happie...sha-la-la-la-la
yupsy dupsy, im indeed very happy bcos i got into e faculty i wanted to.yay!!! and dad's happy for me too. double yay!!!
well, now for the decision.NTU or NUS.hhmmm i personally feel NTU is a more humble place. serene, quiet, condusive. tts e impression i got upon visiting the open house. Many ppl would choose NUS upon acceptance but ranking's not e only thing rite? i'll seek dad's advice on this. but he'll most probably tell me to choose e one i want.dad's always easy-going...but i guess i cant go for the tea party this sat. wat a pity. jeanette will be there. sigh...if only...
mother's day is this sunday. dad suggested having a barbeque by the poolside. tt'll be quite fun. i wonder if mum will like e idea...hhmmm...shall ask her bout it 2moro.
think i wana go to bed now. kinda tired and im tkg of getting up early to head for e gym. not sure if i can fufil tt though.we'll see bout it. jus came to share my joy with u, or maybe jus myself.
hey,i jus tot of eddy's joke again. tt yakult joke. hahaha u're e funnyman. never fail to luff at his actions and jokes.hahaha...newae, if u happen to read this, jus wana say "enjoy ur reservice tho u okay. it'll be over b4 u noe it. dun think bout e process.jus concentrate on e end." now, aint tt good advice? enjoy ur san guo yan yi (romance of the 3 kindoms) in the meantime=)
gdnite
sweet dreams
haf an even better day 2moro, later rather.

2005-05-02T00:20:00.001-07:00

ooohhh its been such a long time since we went out as 1; as a family. e feeling is jus soo great walking together and shopping together, tho i didnt do any.
still remember back in p5 when i went for yamaha masterclass lessons in suntec city, we used to go super early n have breakfast @ delifrance. u guys still remember? then it was so easy to get a good parking space.mum would jus zoom into e lot right next to the entrance! it was as if we were VIPs and that lot was meant for us.ahh...i miss those days...i miss music lessons sooo badly.back in pri n sec sch, music lessons were very much my life.i hd up to 4 lessons per week!! 1 private piano lesson, 1 yamaha masterclass, 1 private violin lesson and 1 group violin lesson. and to add on, i had tuition 3 times per week, like any other stressed pupil. many of my frens felt so sorry that i had no time for myself but at that time, i didnt think it was tiring or had any hard feelings bout my hectic schedule. i guess i was bz trying my best at everything and not concentrating on tiredness. well, at least i have smthg to remember when i look back at my schooling days... i bet u i'll go join a music group in uni.oh, talking bout uni, im so glad n relieved that i've got a place aldy!!! yeah~~~ my worries are over man. im jus afraid i'll not enjoy the course i was posted to.hhmmm i haf reservations bout that, which is scary. if things turn out positive, ill haf a great time and enjoy everything. if things take a turn for a disaster, i'll probably hafta switch courses, wch means i'll waste time.urgh. lets all pray hard that e latter doesnt happen yeah. *prays earnestly* (is there such a thing?) well, at least to me...
okie, lets not keep tkg bout e sad stuff. shopping today was quite fruitful. Sis bought lotsa clothes and shoes (she'll never leave that out). we got a bag for mum from mango. its her mothers' day pressie.dionne bought earings and a present for her fren (she's such a nice fren to have) and bro got his gloves for gym workouts (wayta go bro! grow those mice)hahaha...ok...n i've got cheesecake from carrefour! argh...those calories gotta go. but i cant resist all the tempting delicacies.can someone help me??? and to make matters worst, sis introduced us to heveanly choc from "ROYCE" urgh! not another sin to add to my already exploding list...
on a happier and more comfortng note, i went to e gym today! yay *pat on my back* ok, i noe its not gona help much but mus be more encouraging rite...i was onm e tredmill for more than 30mins ok. unfortunately, i think i gained everythg back when i ate a bowl of maggie mee. hey, i was hungry lah...cant help it...i'll try harder next time so that my poor eyes wont haf to bear the agony of staring into a frightening image in the mirror. oh me oh my...
i jus figured another way to get the photos in my fone into my com. e 1st is to send e pics to another fone and then send e pics to my mailbox (my lousy fone cant send emails.i'll never buy this brand again!) but i was hesitant boutcarrying this method as it not only time consuming, but also costly. afew days ago, i noticed that e laptop had infared (ok guys, i noe im W-O-L-S). then i thought that maybe i could send e pics via infared. tt would be fast and free! goody...s i told bro all about it,thinking that i've made a great discovery. but his only reply was"yeah yeah, u mean u duno? gayl..." i was like "okay...fine...smart la...im a com dino can?!?" but nonetheless, boy was i excited to try out my new-yet-late finding. guess wat? i've got all e photos in here and into a cd-rom. yay...cheers to me. and im gona print em out nat e film shop sometime soon. then i can get down to serious business in making my scrapbook. its a long term project.yay yay yay...im super duper elated! yipee yai yai- yipee yipee yay...lalala...
i happened to chance on someone's blog jus now. it was a link from a link to a link.duno e person tho. i was shocked at e language that e person used. he was F-fing here and there. there was no sentence that left it out.he even used hokkien vulgarities! sigh, i dun understand how can anyone use such words so casually, so blatuntly...is like a"is","are","was" to him.i cant even bring myself to use any of those, not even in e worst of times.
ok, this is a long blog. im quite on task after all aye?
tc guys and happy labour day...

2005-05-02T00:20:00.000-07:00

ooohhh its been such a long time since we went out as 1; as a family. e feeling is jus soo great walking together and shopping together, tho i didnt do any.
still remember back in p5 when i went for yamaha masterclass lessons in suntec city, we used to go super early n have breakfast @ delifrance. u guys still remember? then it was so easy to get a good parking space.mum would jus zoom into e lot right next to the entrance! it was as if we were VIPs and that lot were meant for us.ahh...i miss those days...i miss music lessons sooo badly.back in pri n sec sch, music lessons were very much my life.i hd up to 4 lessons per week!! 1 private piano lesson, 1 yamaha masterclass, 1 private violin lesson and 1 group violin lesson. and to add on, i had tuition 3 times per week, like any other stressed pupil. many of my frens felt so sorry that i had no time for myself but at that time, i didnt think it was tiring or had any hard feelings bout my hectic schedule. i guess i was bz trying my best at everything and not concentrating on tiredness. well, at least i have smthg to remember when i look back at my schooling days... i bet u i'll go join a music group in uni.oh, talking bout uni, im so glad n relieved that i've got a place aldy!!! yeah~~~ my worries are over man. im jus afraid i'll not enjoy the course i was posted to.hhmmm i haf reservations bout that, which is scary. if things turn out positive, ill haf a great time and enjoy everything. if things take a turn for a disaster, i'll probably hafta switch courses, wch means i'll waste time.urgh. lets all pray hard that e latter doesnt happen yeah. *prays earnestly* (is there such a thing?) well, at least to me...
okie, lets not keep tkg bout e sad stuff. shopping today was quite fruitful. Sis bought lotsa clothes and shoes (she'll never leave that out). we got a bag for mum from mango. its her mothers' day pressie.dionne bought earings and a present for her fren (she's such a nice fren to have) and bro got his gloves for gym workouts (wayta go bro! grow those mice)hahaha...ok...n i've got cheesecake from carrefour! argh...those calories gotta go. but i cant resist all the tempting delicacies.can someone help me??? and to make matters worst, sis introduced us to heveanly choc from "ROYCE" urgh! not another sin to add to my already exploding list...
on a happier and more comfortng note, i went to e gym today! yay *pat on my back* ok, i noe its not gona help much but mus be more encouraging rite...i was onm e tredmill for more than 30mins ok. unfortunately, i think i gained everythg back when i ate a bowl of maggie mee. hey, i was hungry lah...cant help it...i'll try harder next time so that my poor eyes wont haf to bear the agony of staring into a frightening image in the mirror. oh me oh my...
i jus figured another way to get the photos in my fone into my com. e 1st is to send e pics to another fone and then send e pics to my mailbox (my lousy fone cant send emails.i'll never buy this brand again!) but i was hesitant boutcarrying this method as it not only time consuming, but also costly. afew days ago, i noticed that e laptop had infared (ok guys, i noe im W-O-L-S). then i thought that maybe i could send e pics via infared. tt would be fast and free! goody...s i told bro all about it,thinking that i've made a great discovery. but his only reply was"yeah yeah, u mean u duno? gayl..." i was like "okay...fine...smart la...im a com dino can?!?" but nonetheless, boy was i excited to try out my new-yet-late finding. guess wat? i've got all e photos in here and into a cd-rom. yay...cheers to me. and im gona print em out nat e film shop sometime soon. then i can get down to serious business in making my scrapbook. its a long term project.yay yay yay...im super duper elated! yipee yai yai- yipee yipee yay...lalala...
i happened to chance on someone's blog jus now. it was a link from a link to a link.duno e person tho. i was shocked at e language that e person used. he was F-fing here and there. there was no sentence that left it out.he even used hokkien vulgarities! sigh, i dun understand how can anyone use such words so casually, so blatuntly...is like a"is","are","was" to him.i cant even bring myself to use any of those, not even in e worst of times.
ok, this is a long blog. im quite on task after all aye?
tc guys and happy labour day...

that irritating popper ought to go!

2005-04-29T01:47:00.000-07:00

argh this friend of mine is irritating me! there's something seriously wrong wif her messanger!!! screwed...it keeps popping up every 10 seconds.argh!!! i think it urgently needs a life support machine or smthg. keeps slipping in and out of death.argh so irritating!!! and here it pops up again....and again...and AGAIN!!! kill it! jus carry out euthanasia on it. it doesnt deserve to live any longer.
okie. cool it man...breathe in...and out...and again...*does it repeatedly* *looking like a total idiot in front of a laptop screen*
i cant be so violent. i need some inner peace right now.
ok lets switch the topic. i met tab jus now. we had a great time tokg and catching up. though i constantly keep in touch wif her, it seems as though i've not talked to her for ages. so much has been going on in her life. she needed to update me.
soon after having to wait for her for 40 mins!!! (so much from a bestie. thanks ar...) we headed to suntec.
1st stop: FOOD. i was dead hungry. dinner was a plate of veg,egg, my all time fav sweet sour fish and rice. tab had claypot rice. she kept adding scoups of dark soy sauce to each spoonful of rice that she took and i had to stop her by confiscating it and hiding it behind my plate. so we ate n tok, ate n tok...then tab had ice cream while i continue talking. then tab bought a drink from aunt anne's and we were stopped at the entrance of carrefour when we tried to enter. embarrassingly, we retreated. but tab complained that the drink was too cold to finish it anytime soon. so i told her to sneak the drink in her bag temporarily till we get pass those watchful eyes. of cos we succeeded. we're such good fakers. we walked around, looked around. then tab bought a large tray of sushi for her mum and afew for herself. she's such a good daughter. i bought hershey's hot chocolate for my beloved bro n sis. im such a good sister *grinz*
as it was kinda late(it was about 9pm), we decided to head for the mrt station. we had a stopover outside giodarno and mph cos tab wanted to eat her sushi. so we sat at e benches and talked evenmore.hahaha.suprisingly, our jaws didnt seem tired at all. guess we had too much to say to worry bout tiredness.
we talked about some mild stuff and then came some shocking news. tab told me bout stuff i NEVER KNEW and would have NEVER GUESSED happened in jc, while i was studying there. apparently, some students werent behaving and werent concentrating on their studies. their minds were elsewhere during lessons.omg omg omg. well, i cant reveal wat it is but its definately not smthg u wana noe bout. when i heard it, i squrimed and my goosebumps popped out and my knees went weak. i always had this innocent thought that ppl were in school to study and their minds were filled with facts and information and nothing else. but so wrong, was i. i never knew, i never knew. gosh...yikes..urgh!
ok, time was flying past and i realised i already missed my 9pm ch8 show. though i had wanted to tune in religiously as i had always done so, by returning home early, that was not to be. i wonder wat happened today. can anyone update me?
still, i haf no regrets missing it cos i gained some information.so tab, dun feel bad...
okie, now that it was really late by my standards, we really had to head home. i hate walking alone, on a long dark and lonely path in the dark.
we had one last and short stopover at breadtalk where i bought mummy's favourite bread, country bread. its a rare occasion to see it still there on the shelves at that time. so i grabbed it when i imagined mum savouring each bite of each slice.
yay...at last...home sweet home...wat a tiring and informative day...
will be going to suntec again on sunday.

not my full name guys!

2005-04-28T13:46:00.000-07:00

ah, i have no idea why my beloved siblings decided to put my full name out on my blog.argh...its sooo....twain teo wei ren and dionne teo xinhui! thanks bro n little sis. u guys are soo...full
name-y! hahaha. ok well, wat to do, i wasn't around to supervies the settings of this blog cos i left for msia. and i jus realised it this when i was admiring my blog until i saw e bottom part. ok...i hope to edit it soon, if u guys teach me how to...

i hopes, i hopes, i hopes...

2005-04-28T13:43:00.000-07:00

my mind is full of worry now. important worries. worries tt may determine the rest of ,my life. dun wana spell wat my worries are but i guess many of u in my position will understand how i feel. at least i know there is 1 person who can read this and figure it out immediately. unfortunately, tt 1 person wont be able to read it.
kk 4get about tt worry for a moment.
i was glancing thru the friendster pages jus now and realised there are many of my friends whom i havent been able to catch up with. i've lost touch since my buzy jc days. now tt im free, i tk ey r e bz ones.guys, hope to meet up with u soon. though i dont know when.
yesterday was a rocky day. the weather was unpredictable. all was well till we reached home. then, things started going hay-wire. from a computer breakdown that turned into a nightmare. argueably one of e worst seen days. dont wish to list the details. sigh sigh sigh...
hey, guess wat? i dun hafta teach this sat. hee hee...hall-lee-day for me=)
im gog out later. gona meet my bestie tab. she's super bz. its so hard to squeeze out some free time. better treasure that little time that we have. okie.gotta crack my brains on wat to wear. nah, i tk i've decided aldy. its always the same old outfit all e time newae. keke. gtg.
i hopes, i hopes, i hopes...for the best!

2005-04-24T09:21:00.000-07:00

currently chatting wif michelle...actually i was talking to many ppl but our conversations slowly faded away. today was a rather boring day. actually i cant really comment on my days cos ey're all about e same level or boring-ness, if u can understand wat i mean.
the day started out wif dionne, mum, i n bro heading out of house. mum dropped bro at tamp statn while e rest of us headed for e market to buy salad for dinner. but unfortunately the fresh salad uncle didnt haf enuff salad. so we had to buy some from NTUC. as usual, i got down e car and did tt favour for e rest. argh.
watched the installation of pope benedict 16 upon reaching home. have no idea why i watched it but i somehow enjoy watching this kinda grand ceremonies.
went to the gym wif dionne to halt her bugging and nagging. we were there bout anhour. afterwch, we came up for our dinner of salad and salmon. yummy. tts e only thing worth waiting for. mum's self marinated salmon is so super delicious!
newae guys, i haf no idea why im blogging now. nthg interesting to say. i guess i jus feel like typing smthg.hahaha. sorry bout e boring entry...
its jus another boring day... *sulks*

a new addition to the house

2005-04-21T15:05:00.000-07:00

alright little sis...so ur new found love is finally here. too bad u arent back to see it yet.heh heh...i was here all the while to see it being born. it sure is beautiful eh.bet u'll love it and have so much fun wif it.ok, why am i treating it as if it were a living thing?!? its jus a silver double decker, or rather, an upper decker bed,silver.hahaha sounds funny.its neither here nor there. its a crossed breed! sadly, ur work space has been greatly minimised cos of e computer.well, at least u have e whole computer to urself, while i get e laptop! *smirks* nah, im not tt selfish. dont worry, u'll get to use it once a month or smthg? aiya,im not tt mean lah, maybe u'll have it when i have e means to get another laptop.tt will be quite soon, jus about 5 more years? okay, stop snarling at me.
dad jus commented tt the room is more functional now. more space have been created.looks more like a room now yeah. thankfully i recovered from my bad flu n cold over the night. jus in time to help out with e setting up n cleaning up. i can imagine ur excitedment contained in u now,even as u try to hurry ur library duties to rush home. but u've still got an hour and a half to go.hang in there...e clock is ticking...tick tock tick tock...u'll hear the bell in no time...89 more mins to go... =p
i had this wierd dream last nite.have no idea why i dreamt bout tt person.some kinda nightmare i guess. i'll jus erase it from my memory. luckily dad came in and halted my dreaming process. ok,shant tok bout it anymore.
i've got work again day after tomorrow.will there be any suprises? are ey good or bad ones? i think i've seen quite abit since starting work 2 months ago. so much so that i dun think any more "good" suprises can bring my spirits down anymore. well, its a 1 yr contract so i guess i dun have a choice but to endure all the situations that come my way. on a lighter note, maybe i shld jus ponder bout wat to wear. at least tts in my control and its better than thinkg bout stuff which i cant control rite...hhmmm...my choices are so limited! its either this or that. boring. maybe i shld get some variety. we'll see to that.
american idol is starting now. my bet is tt anthony or scott will be voted out this week.wats urs? i want vonzel to win!!! or maybe anwar. ey're the true winners. well, to me, at least. okok i can hear seacrest tokg. his typical sentence "its the time of the week where one of them will leave us tonight. who will it be? the ans to that qn, right atfter the break." duh...script...ok, gtg see if i've won the bet. tab will be calling me tonight to tell me smthg interesting. ahh cant wait! cya guys, tc in everything that u do. till my next post, tata...

after a loooonnnggg disappearing act...

2005-04-18T01:32:00.000-07:00

ok, its been super long since i last typed here. oh well, i knew from the start that i wouldn't be consistent. proved myself right.

newae...life has been...how should i say...full of hopes and disappointments?
i've been wondering what my life will be like in the next few year...wonder where i'll be, what will i be doing n stuff. sometimes it gets quite depressing. most of my frens respond wif a "aiya dont worry lah, im sure u'll be able to do this n that...blah blah blah..." then i ponder to myself "how sure are u?will i really be doing that?" but then again, there are times when i feel super positie bout things that are going to happen. the feelings inside me are like a yo-yo. my life is so shaky!!! so insecure...all my frens have definate plans, or rather, fixed plans, or maybe u can call it back-up plans. ey have no worries watsoeva.

things at home were ok. nothing fantastic going on at e moment. u noe smthg...though im kinda free now as compared to e rest, i sometimes really HATE helping around n doing tings. bcos i dun that e stuff i do are appreciated. its easy for ppl to expect and take for-granted the things around them. and i mean even the littlest things. thats so sad. now i can relate to mum's feelings. everytime i help around, i jus wana ease mum's burden, hoping that she'll be a little more relieved that she has less things to bother about.i dont know how much help it is though...
i went for my interview today. i tot i did quite ok cos i talked quite abit. but apparently, i didnt do well according to members of the family. ey were bombarding me wif "u-shld-have-done" stuff that made me feel really lousy bout myself that instant. and all that time i was jus looking out of e window and shouting "BUT ITS ALL OVER ALDY!" i mean wats e pt of saying negative suff to a person when nthg can be done aldy. and to begin wif, i didnt get advice. not that i did not heed ur advice or smthg rite...ok im not angry,maybe jus upset and disappointed. i do hope everything will turn out fine so there wont be a need to appeal n stuff like that. it would be so troublesome and evenmore disheartening. and to all my frens: i wish all of u e best in attaining your desired course.

i jus had a chat with xiao hui online.she left aldy. but she's one friend i can always count on to cheer me up and brighten my nights! haha.oh well, she's always saying nice stuff bout me. and when i thank her, she'll say that she's jus stating the facts. ahh, another nice comment from her. she's so thoughtful. hee hee...
tab is so bz nowadays that it's so hard to tok to her. she's always bz bz bz...if its not church stuff, then its some other stuff that are equally important...she's so occupied. tab, y are u so bz??? i shall disturb u when u're not that bz.but when will that be? i doubt it'll be anytime soon. but im glad u're so occupied now.keeps ur thoughts from wondering yeah...
this entry is sooo super long. cant blame me.i've not been tokg to myself for a loooong time. little sis was using e com jus now n she checked my blog. when she found out that there were no new entries, she said "i cant expect anything from here" hahaha im proving u wrong sis:-)
ok im not done yet.

did u guys catch e NKF charity show jus now? my favourite parts are when ey feature patients telling their plight. its really pitiful and it makes me treasure what i am now, and what i have. health is really invaluable. there was this couple who has a small clothes stall i dont know where. apparently he had a business but after having kidney problems, he stopped his business and set up a clothes stall. they said their current busness is not good and sometimes they even have to dig into their own pockets to fill the losses. whats worse is that his wife recently discovered that she has a brain tumor growing in her. its like double tragedy! i do hope ppl will patronise their stall and help em out if ey can.
there was another couple where the wife has kidney problems and an amputated leg from the knee downwards. her husband is all that she has and he takes care of her w/o complaints. he does everything! from cooking,washing up, bathing her, making sure she takes her medicine though he laments that she always throws tantrums when that time comes. but he's really SUPER and STRONG! yeah,he's super stong!i salute u uncle *fingers to the forehead* and when he was asked what his wishes were, he didnt ask for money, but rather a simple wish that his wife would take her medicine and go for dialysis regularly.
sometimes i wonder what are my worries and angsts compared to those with an ill loved one. nothing...i guess...
well sis, im done wif my blogging for now. dont know when will be my next entry though, probably about the same interval as e last one, or maybe even longer. till then...enjoy this very recent entry :) oh yeah, and dont bother worrying bout ur compo test results cos there are bigger things in life to worry about. and its ok if u lost that 1 mark to that noun or verb that u were telling me u wrote wrongly cos we all make mistakes in life, what more a small mistake like this! u're gonna get ur long awaited bed 2moro!

tired...

2005-02-24T15:30:00.000-08:00

i've not blogged 4 a long time...knew this would happen cos im not an avid com user and im so lazy to wait 4 e com to start up.
my trip to KL was fun fun fun.was glad to see all my aunties and especially my ahma!!! jus when i left my aunt's house for home,i started missing my ah ma aldy.she took care of me since i was born.used to bring me to e park every morning in my stroller...n sing to me...those were e days. totally missed em
newae,i had a great time making cookies at my aunt's place.though i didn't go shopping cos i didn't want to.well, i haf nthg in mind to buy newae. decided to replace that time by making cookies 4 my family=)i made 3 types n ey're nthg but delicious! too bad u cant try.hee hee... my aunt made cakes n stuff too.she's good at baking.oh yeah,we made popiah too.my aunts know i dont eat meat except for fish meat,so ey made vege stuff for me.so sweet of em...
since i got back, i've been real bz cleaning e house.washing e toilet,mopping e floor etc.
music lessons has been great.my 2nd student is a music prodigy man.she's only 4 but she can aldy play wif both hands while other children her age are learning do re mi...she'll be a great pianist in future...i feel stressed!
kk i dun feel like typing anymore.
signing out...

my very 1st entry....

2005-02-12T18:21:00.000-08:00

happy new year to u!
i jus created my very own blog 5 minutes ago...was quite hesitant about creating this n i think it wont last 4 long anyway.but,well, i shall jus give it a go after my sisters had their's.
i use to think,and still think that blogging online rips off one's privacy.dont ya think so?jus give it a little thought...its like penning all ur thoughts, that are actually suppose to be private,on the World Wide Web! hahaha aint that true?well, r u considering to scrape off that blog of yours...nah,its personal preference after all...
guess wat guys,im going to malaysia 2moro.created this blog jus in time. im going to visit my aunts n my ah ma...i miss em...im also going there to pray on e 9th day of cny.yups it'll be a short trip.i'll be going wif my aunt.only 6 days.i'll haf to be back in time to teach on sat.
0kie, im heading down to my aunt's place to spend e nite there.till then,take care,bye bye...

music gives life soul

title-less

long lost freedom...(well, at least for 3 months or so)

countdown =(

my heart...

yes im updating noe

yay..or maybe not...

ok did it again

mr arthur, come out from ur hiding place!

so tired, so screwed...

from me to dad

yucky day

what am i doing here?!?

tired

my new lappy

Its been a long time

sick...

Bsck to e Books mates

the orientation that was not to be

CHIP! NO~

cuzzie's place

thanks

Go bro!

Bake, bake, bake

urgh!

food,food,glorious food...

e nite out

what am i doing?

what am i doing?

the busy day

shopping with mummy!!!

dedicated to my dear friend...

my life's great!

baking session @ chelle's house

its mummy's day

im successfu*applause*

that irritating popper ought to go!

not my full name guys!

i hopes, i hopes, i hopes...

a new addition to the house

after a loooonnnggg disappearing act...

tired...

my very 1st entry....

im successfuapplause